This is Crazy!!
I am crazy. I have decided to wait on God. I have decided to take Him at His Word. That is just plain crazy, and it is looking more insane by the day. When I tell people that I have decided to stand in the gap and pray for my wife, pray for the restoration of our marriage, and pray that God is glorified through this trial, most of them say, “good for you.” The look on their face, however, says, that is sad. The poor guy. He can’t let go. He’s going to lose his mind. Sometimes they just tell me I’m nuts. Don’t get me wrong, when I speak with those whom I trust, admire, and respect in the Lord, they are quick to say, “you are doing the right thing, and you are not crazy.” A friend and colleague blessed me yesterday by stopping by and sharing her trials. Her and her husband have been trying for quite some time to have children. God has called them to wait on him and not trust in IVF or the world’s solutions. She too is being told she is crazy. We are both crazy, or obedient… depending on your point of view. Either way, pray for both of us. We need it!
The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does. (Psalm 145:13)
It’s about time…
I have decided that it’s about time I looked a little crazy. I’ve spent far too much time worrying about appearances, and making light of my relationship with God. Now, here I stand, amidst the shards of a broken marriage, trying to survive and care for my children. Yesterday, I asked God to take my “cool” out back and slaughter it. I asked him to take my last remnants of pride, distance, and materialism and dash them against the rocks. I’m no longer asking him to bring my wife back. I’m asking him to restore my marriage and set it ablaze for him. I want my marriage to be restored, but God wants the glory. I have heard Him, and I will obey.
Meanwhile, I am praying Psalm 119:10-22 for myself. I am also remembering the words of Jesus, in Matthew 5:38-48, as I prepare my heart for my wife’s actions in the coming months. If she wants to sue me and take my shirt, am I ready to hand over my coat as well? How crazy am I? How crazy am I prepared to be? If Jesus is my role model, and I am called to move forward with humility, purpose and selflessness, understanding that there will be suffering, then this is what I must do.
Resources that sustain me in my insanity…
Then the Lord will create over [you]…a shelter and shade from the heat of the day, and a refuge and hiding place from the storm and rain. (Isaiah 4:5-6)
I have found resources to sustain me. I have His Word, first and foremost. I have it on my phone. I have a paper bible. I have it online. It’s everywhere, and readily available. I have prayer. I have my good friends and mentors. I have found , Standing Firm, a weekly devotional for men standing for their wives, and I have found Fight for your marriage, a weekly podcast for all standers. If you have any other resources you would like to recommend, comment below.
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[a]
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:31-39)
#standthegap friends. Aslan is on the move.