Month: May 2014

Be prepared…

But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander. (1 Peter 3:15-16)

I am not prepared. I have not often given the best answers as of late. My least favorite question, which everyone asks me, is, “are you excited for your summer vacation?” No I am not. My family is broken. My one-flesh covenant relationship has been rent in two. I will often be alone with not much to do but work around and on my lonely house that we built together. I will have the occasional distraction of sitting in court. I wish I just had a big sign to wear that said, “DON’T ASK ME ABOUT SUMMER, PLEASE!” The thing is that I am supposed to be walking in victory. I am to be standing firm, remembering:

  • “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:18-19
  • “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
  • Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.” Ephesians 3:20
  • “Have faith in God.” Jesus answered…“Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” Mark 11:22, 24
  • “I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Then they will follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. They will be my people, and I will be their God.” Ezekiel 11:19-20
  • “What then shall we say to this? If God is for us, who is against us?” Romans 8:31
  • and so on…

Still, I hurt. I feel the pain and dread and grief every time I hear the word, summer. Most often I simply answer in complete honesty. “No, I’m dreading summer actually.” That is not a very good witness to the faithfulness of Christ. That is a failure to witness. That is a victory for the enemy.

Pray for me that I may be prepared, both to give an answer and for my summer vacation.

Surrender is so hard…

Rhema or Insomnia?

Rhema or Insomnia?

God,

Help me today. I am struggling so much. My mood is as dark as this rain filled sky today, Lord. I know that my struggle is not against my spouse and this other man, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms (Ephesians 6:12). I have no doubt about your power to restore my marriage. God, I know that you are able to do immeasurably more than all I ask or imagine, according to Your power that is at work within me (Ephesians 3:20). I know you can restore my marriage, but I question whether you will. Oh, that you would speak to me clearly! Forgive my wasted years and hear this broken sinful man! Have mercy on me and hear my cry!

I am trying desperately to forget the former things; to not dwell on the past. I know that you are doing a new thing, but I do not perceive it (Isaiah 43:18-19). I know that you have plans for me, and you say that they are plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). I am trying desperately to Be strong and courageous; to not be afraid or discouraged because of my circumstances, for there is a greater power with me than with those against me (2 Chronicles 32:7).

Help me, in Jesus name, help me to seek first Your kingdom and Your righteousness, and all these things will be given to me as well (Matthew 6:33). Help me to have faith enough in your good will, your perfect plan for me, and your timing to surrender totally to you. Open my eyes, Lord, so that I may see. Show me the hills full of horses and chariots of fire (2 Kings 6:17). I know that if I make You my dwelling, my refuge, that no harm will befall me, no disaster will come near to my tent. For You will command Your angels concerning me to guard me in all my ways (Psalm 91:9-11). You heal the brokenhearted and binds up our wounds (Psalm 147:3), God, and I am brokenhearted! Hold me! Comfort me! Remind me again and again to Rejoice! Let my gentleness be evident to all. Remind me that You are near. Help me not to be anxious about anything, not my divorce, not my finances, not what my spouse is doing, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, to present my requests to You. Fill me then with your peace, which transcends all understanding, and guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus. Allow me to put off thoughts of my wife, the other man, and my past and to meditate upon whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, and anything that is excellent or praiseworthy (Philippians 4:4-8).

I know that you have said that I must have faith in You and whatever I ask for in prayer, I may believe that I have received it, and it will be mine (Mark 11:22, 24). Help me to rest in that promise today, Lord. There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against YOU (Proverbs 21:30). Help me to never be shaken, filling me with your righteousness. May I have no fear of bad news. May my heart be steadfast, trusting in YOU. Make my heart secure, having no fear, and in the end I will look in triumph on my foes (Psalm 112 6-8). Help me to see that you are not only mighty but also good and loving. Help me to believe that you really care about me and my marriage. May the scripture I received some nights ago, in the dark of the morning, ‘The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,’ says the Lord Almighty. ‘And in this place I will grant peace,’ declares the Lord Almighty” (Haggai 2:9), be a Rhema Word from you and not merely  the vain striving of a man driven mad with grief and desperation.

Once again, God, I come now boldly and freely into your presence, freely asking these things according to your will, sure that you’re listening, confident that what I’ve asked for is as good as mine. So, I pray for my beloved and ask that you give her life (1 John 5:13-16). Give her an undivided heart and put a new spirit in her; remove from her her heart of stone and give her a heart of flesh. Then she will follow Your decrees and be careful to keep Your laws. We will be your people, and You will be our God (Ezekiel 11:19-20). Lord, fill her with Godly sorrow that brings repentance, leads to salvation and leaves no regret (2 Corinthians 7:10). Send her a personal Damascus road experience soon, God. I believe that nothing is too hard for you you. Forgive me of my sins and lead me to repentance so that I will be ready. Then, go and bring her home quickly, Lord!

Oh God, today I am indeed sowing with tears! Oh that I would reap with songs of joy! (Psalm 126:5). God, help me to stand firm, knowing that this battle is yours (Exodus 14:12-14  & 2 Chronicles 20:16-18). Throw this mountain into the sea, God (Mark 11:23). I beg you for your blessed assurance today. You say in Luke, that you will freely give of your Holy Spirit, and I need it. Help me, Jesus, help me…

In Jesus name,

Amen

 

 

Communication questions…

smsWe live in a world of communication. We text. We tweet. We call. We post. I am a communicator. I am an extrovert. I need to talk about everything with everyone. Now I find myself in one of the most communication-barren places in my life. God does not text, tweet, or call. My spouse has separated and distanced herself from me. I must rely on other forms of communication in the most difficult trial of my life. What am I to do? Unfortunately, I have more questions than answers right now, but maybe this will minister to you nonetheless…

Standing Orders, Special Instructions, & Signs…

Thoughts on communicating with God.

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A Sunday or so ago at church, our Pastor talked about standing orders vs. special instructions. The basic gist is that God has given us his standing orders, the stuff we’re supposed to do all of the time without asking, in the Bible. If we’re doing those faithfully, then comes the special instructions. I mentioned yesterday that, I am only following the standing orders found in 1 Corinthians,  Malachi,  Mark, Luke, and so on. I have not received any special instructions. I don’t feel like God has promised me anything. I wish that he would would speak to me. I had a fellow stander tweet me recently that I would not believe all of the things he’s seen and heard directly from God regarding his stand. That’s awesome! Praise God! Right now, I’ll settle for a truck sighting. I know that I’m on the right path. I know that I’m doing God’s will. I’ve received blessing upon blessing and tons of affirmation that I am on the right path. Nonetheless, I would love to get any word at all that God intends to restore my marriage. I have this sneaking dread that I’m going to be called to a life of loneliness, pain, and celibacy. I’m trying to surrender that to him, but it scares me to death! I love my wife, and I hate being alone!

Maybe God is communicating with me. I did figure out the whole standing thing pretty quickly. I did find Rejoice Ministries in less than a month after my wife left home. I have been blessed financially. I did find Stephanie’s testimony. Often what I read or hear in devotionals and daily and weekly podcasts lines up perfectly with what my spouse is doing or saying or with what I’m going through. Is this coincidence or God speaking? I do know that my spouse seems very happy without me. She seems to be on top of the world and feeling no regret or conviction at all. The new Christian friends she’s surrounded herself with seem blind or indifferent to what is happening. From my limited view on this side of the mountain, everything looks very bleak. This holiday weekend was excruciating, and I cannot imagine the Summer, when I shall have tons of time to myself, often parenting alone. Oddly, this morning’s devotional from Charlyne, was about letting God wipe away your tears. Again, God hit me this morning right where I needed it.Here is the closing scripture from today’s devotional.

When the LORD brought back the captives to Zion, we were like men who dreamed. Our mouths were filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy. Then it was said among the nations, “The LORD has done great things for them.” The LORD has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy. Restore our fortunes, O LORD, like streams in the Negev. Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him. (Psalm 126:1-6)

I am continually comforted, cared for, and blessed. Why do I doubt? Why to I beg for a sign? How many have I missed? How many am I ignoring or dismissing? I pray that Charlyne is right that, “[I] will be weeping tears of joy at God’s perfect timing when the Lord brings [my] spouse back from the enemy’s prison camp” (Charlyne Steinkamp). I would love to have that promise confirmed, but I will continue to stand nonetheless. I long for the day when “everyone will be saying, Look at what the Lord has done for you, your beloved spouse and your family. To God be the glory!” (Charlyne Steinkamp).

Will my actions speak louder?

Thoughts on communicating with her.

What do I say to her? At church, we’ve been talking about forgiveness and how we need to take the first step in reconciling relationships. I fell at a loss as to what to say. My spouse knows where I stand. She knows I am not signing Divorce papers. She knows that I am here, hanging on. Is there anything else I should say to her? It seems like I am just to pray and stand and work on my walk.

He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the Lord says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s. Tomorrow march down against them. They will be climbing up by the Pass of Ziz, and you will find them at the end of the gorge in the Desert of Jeruel. You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’” (2 Chronicles 20:15-17).

It’s hard for me to simply stand. I want to communicate with my mouth, but I feel that my actions must speak for me, which is much much harder when all of our interactions are awkward and often tense. I want to send cards and flowers and letters, but I find myself fighting those urges. I think all the flowers on earth will make little difference when I find myself being untruthful about little insignificant things just because I’m in fight or flight mode and my sin nature takes over. I feel like I spend every private moment in prayer and scripture. How can I still lie about whether or not I read a text message?

15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do… 21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! (Romans 7:15, 23-25)

Oh God, let me crucify this sinful nature so that I can communicate what I wish to communicate. In the name of Jesus, help me!

Pray for me friends. Pray for my wife. Pray for our kids. I’m praying for you. Tweet me if you want me to do so by name.

The surreal side of standing…

surrealMy life is surreal… there’s simply no other way to describe it. I just spent the holiday weekend with my kids, playing Trouble, having tea parties, doing laundry, attending picnics, and going to church. Basically, I continue to live life as though nothing has changed, providing stability the best I can. I mowed some lawn. I ran the weed eater. I cooked. I did dishes. I read the Word and I prayed. I read and prayed some more. Last evening, my wife came to take the kids for an overnight. I gathered some things for her and reminded the kids to “be good for mommy”. She reminded me that I would have them back in two days for a reason that essentially translated to, “I have a date with the other man.” I said okay, she drove away, and I cleaned up the toys in the yard, praying for her. I should be angry. I should burn with malice, but I don’t. I hurt deeply. I am lonely. I am tired. I am unsure where this is going or how long I must endure. Still, I am called to love. Loving her is easy, despite the pain. I married her. Loving the other man and praying for him is not so easy. Loving her new friends and co-workers and leaders who let this stand and call themselves “Christians” is even more difficult.

You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect. (Matthew 5:43-48).

My good friend stopped by two minutes later. I baked cookies. We talked and prayed until 9:30. We talked of forgiveness. We talked about love. We talked about when the Bible tells us to fight, when it tells us to flee, and when it tells us to stand. As my friend says, too many of us mix those up. That’s why I have so many well-intentioned brothers and sisters telling me that my wife is the enemy, that I need to look to my own happiness and safety, and that I need to flee this whole situation.

  • We are to fight the devil and the war he wages on our thought life.
  • We are to flee from temptation.
  • For all else, we are to stand.
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Somewhere along the line we’ve allowed the proverbs of Oprah to blend in with the Proverbs of Solomon, Agur, and Lemuel. Somewhere we’ve become convinced that God is as worried about our happiness and He is our holiness. Somewhere we’ve been convinced that we should fight for our happiness and flee those who we believe drain us and stand for our rights to happiness. We come first! That’s a load of crap. The Biblical truth is that we’re to put our enemies before ourselves, let alone our family and our spouse! That’s what happened to so many our prodigal spouses!! Satan convinced them that God wanted them to be “more happy” and the key to that happiness was to escape their covenant marriage. My spouse even tried to convince me that I would be more happy with someone else! She sat in our bed and gave me all of the reasons that I would be happier with someone else. That’s a nice fantasy, but it is not Biblical in the least. God said I can’t marry someone else! I married her! She is my covenant spouse. Look in Malachi. Look in Mark. Look in Luke.

Therefore, I continue my surreal existence. My friend and I pray for my spouse’s heart and that she would turn back to God. We pray for her lover, that he would be convicted, converted, and blessed in his own ministry and in a right relationship with a woman who is perfect for him (and not in a covenant relationship with someone else). That’s right, I find myself praying blessings on the other man. God’s marching orders are all upside down feeling. That’s surreal! I will read and pray and read an pray. Many of my brothers and sisters will continue to ask me if I’ve received some kind of special instructions from God. No I haven’t. I am only following the standing orders found in 1 Corinthians. I can either stand and pray for restoration, I can live my life single and bitter, or I can fall into sin myself by marrying someone else.

I have been blessed with a lot of support through this. I still do not know how many people are praying for my marriage. Still, a local community of support would be nice. I have been invited to a lot of Divorce care groups. I do not want Divorce care. I want a marriage restoration ministry. I want like minded believers to gather with in prayer, to join hands, and lift up our covenant spouses. One should not have to join an exclusive online message board or drive to Florida in order to gather with people seeking marriage restoration. I’m praying for revival. I’m praying that our churches would stop accepting the demise of our marriages and Satan’s victory in our homes. I don’t know if God wants to use me in this or not, but I am willing.

  • Pray for me and all standers today.
  • Pray for my spouse and all prodigal spouses right now. Stop reading this and pray for their Damascus road…
  • Pray for our kids. They are not okay.
  • Good, thank you. Now, pray for the church & its leaders.
  • Pray for a revival in this land.

Honestly, I need strength. We all do. No one can do this surreal standing thing on his or her own without slowly going insane. We need God to be our refuge. We need support and we need prayer. Holiday weekends are a great reminder of how lonely and deeply painful this journey is. God bless. May He be with you.

If you’ve just started standing and have stumbled upon this blog, go to Rejoice Marriage Ministries. Get over the web design. It’s 100% Biblical. The resources are great. The people are genuine. Everything you find there, other than printed books and CD media, is free. They’re not after your money. They exist to help. I read the daily and weekly devotionals. I listen to the podcasts.

There are a lot of great resources at Faith and Marriage Ministries. I have not paid to join.

Start reading your Bible. Grab a free Bible app and listen to it in the car and as you fall asleep at night. Pray scriptures for your spouse and yourself, daily. Embrace your insanity.

Sunday…

Screen Shot 2014-05-25 at 4.09.45 PMIt’s a Sunday.

That’s family day…

in our case minus one.

Sunday school drop-off is the worst.

Moms & dads together.

Here I am, just dad again…

 

On my own, I care for the kids.

There’s lunch and nap and play.

It could be worse. I could be alone this week.

My God is in control.

I trust and believe.

He’s up to something…

 

So, I will love my kids.

I will practice the presence…

I will lean wholly on Him,

and I will yearn for some adult conversation.

I will play with Legos.

I will watch Dora, again.

Trading up?

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I dwell in a world

of Cheerios, Spider Man, & Dora.

of toys on the floor.

of Legos and Wii.

of laundry & toddler tea parties…

 

The Other Man dwells

in a world

of Politics, fine restaurants.

of Minor Celebrity & bars until 2…

of fun, travel, nice clothes, & zero responsibility.

 

BUT GOD…

 

It sure seems like you’ve traded up.

I definitely can’t compete.

You’re right my identity comes from home.

No, I’m not exciting at all.

But I love you, for real.

 

I made a covenant before God with you.

I meant that whole better / worse thing.

I meant that whole sickness / health thing.

I will wait forever… til death.

I know you say you’ll never come back.

 

BUT GOD…

 

My God hates divorce.

My God loves you more than I do.

My God is bigger than your heartache.

My God is bigger than my failings.

My God will move this mountain!

 

Saul had free will.

So did Jonah.

So I will pray for your Damascus Road.

So I will stand and grow in him.

He will bring you home.

 

 

 

Faith, grief, complaining, & avoiding the wilderness.

questionReports… I live in a world of reports, bad and good. Mostly, they’re bad, but God is good. As mentioned in earlier posts, I’m really working on my countenance and my faith. I desire to walk in victory despite my circumstances. Just to give you some context, here is my reading & listening list from this last week:

Obviously, you don’t need to read all of that. I actually read and listened to a lot more, not to mention all of the scriptures I’ve been reading. Basically, I’ve been getting a few big ideas clearly out of my devotional diet this week:

  1. I need to stop feeling defeated and looking like I feel defeated.
  2. I need to have faith that God will work in my life.
  3. I need to stop complaining or dwelling on this elephant in the room or it will delay God’s work.
  4. I need to put God first and work on me.

This week, I’ve been trying to do that. I’ve had friends an colleagues comment that my mood seems lighter and that they see God’s work in me.

Last night, I got some bad reports from my kids. I had this sick feeling all evening, and I fought it. I prayed. I took thoughts captive. I asked for more faith. I repeated Mark 9:24 repeatedly. I assured God again and again that I could see him at work and that I trusted him.

After I had my kids settled in bed, I went out back to pray. I got on my knees, and I called God, “Daddy” for the first time in my life. Then, “I cried my guts out”. I can’t describe it any other way. I couldn’t breathe. The sobs came in heaves. I thought I was never going to stop. I realized later as I walked and talked with God, that this was a bubble of grief that burst to the surface. I wasn’t in disbelief. I was in pain! I needed comfort. So, I find myself with these questions:

  1. How much is it okay to mourn the rending of my one-flesh relationship?
  2. Does this count as complaining against God, as the Israelites did?
  3. Considering Isaiah 43:19, should I suck it up and smile?
  4. Does God get tired of hearing my cries and comforting me in my pain?

I know that God is described as my heavenly Father, a relationship I have long struggled to understand because of my own childhood. I am a dad, now, and I do not tire of comforting my children.

This morning, I read about Elisha and his servant’s encounter with the King of Aram’s army, in Charlyne Cares.

…Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. 2 Kings 6:17

I know that He is with me. I know he has surrounded my family and I with his angel armies. I know that He is at work. I still hurt. How much is it okay to hurt?

Not much to say…

bibleI don’t have much to say today. I don’t really have any wisdom as it is. I blog because it’s what I do. Today, I am empty. I am trying to walk in victory, reading His word and praying without ceasing.

The most powerful practice that you can do daily is read God’s Word and pray. Prayer is so powerful. Will you intercede and stand in the gap for your spouse, lost loved ones and friends who do not know the Lord or who are living a sinful lifestyle? (Charlyne Cares)

I’m praying today. I prayed yesterday. I’ll be praying for tomorrow. I never truly appreciated “pray without ceasing” before in my life, but I get it now. What am I praying?

To open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me. (Acts 26:18)

I’m praying that a lot. I’m also praying that He will fill me and do a mighty work in me. I’m trying so hard to exist in the present and ask him what he wants me to do today. Right now, that looks like do my job, love my kids, take care of responsibilities, read my bible and pray and pray and pray some more. I am trying to practice his presence in everything, with out repeating the same requests constantly.

God is blessing me beyond measure right now. I must be thankful and content. I must walk in victory. God will answer my prayers.

Putting God first while looking for trucks…

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Am I putting God first? That’s my question for today. I’ve been feeling like a fake lately. I’ve had that sinking feeling that even though I’m standing in prayer and following his will, that I am a fake and somehow far from God. A lot of this is is clearly attacks of doubt and accusation from Satan. Satan is a liar and will attack me in every way he can. I’ve been trying to take every thought captive and make it OBEDIENT to Christ. I am increasingly convicted, though, of the need to put God first. How do I do this? I keep praying that he will come before my wife and my desire for her return in my life. I am reading the Word daily. I am praying with every free moment. I keep praying that I will put Him first. Then in the next breath I am praying for her and looking around for trucks that may or may not even be in PA.

I feel like others can see the difference in my attitude, my behavior and my devotion to living a Christ-like lifestyle every day. I fear for my heart. I don’t know what to do. I am praying that Hebrews 12 is being written upon my heart. I’m trying hard not to be double minded. I have become increasingly aware that I am being scrutinized by fellow believers and those who do not have a relationship with Christ. I’m also being watched by my son. I’ve been so wrapped up in my pain that I haven’t been walking in the strength and victory I should have in Christ. How is my precious son going to want to embrace Christ when he rarely sees me smiling? Pray for me, brothers and sisters. Pray for me to walk in victory. Pray for my countenance. Pray that I will put God first and be sold out for him.

Meanwhile, my rhema word for today jumped out at me from 2 Peter 2:20-22 and scared me to tears. I am heavily burdened for my spouse. I cannot stop praying for her, though I must put Him first. Pray for me.

On the other side of the mountain.

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Someday I’m going to be with God in eternity.

Maybe then I’ll see what was happening on the other side of the mountain.

Now, I just have to trust that he is faithful.

He is at work.

I may ask Him for anything in Jesus name, and He will do it.

So, I pray for her Damascus road.

 

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened (Luke 11:9-10).

 

The enemy longs to fill me with doubt.

He comes at me with accusations.

He says “face reality”, fool!

…and I pray for strength.

I say, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!

…and I set my face like a flint.

 

It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery (Galatians 5:1).

 

So I cast my burden…

I leave her at His feet again and again.

He will remove her heart of stone.

He will give her a heart of flesh.

He will bring Godly sorrow.

This battle is not mine.

 

I am sending you to them to open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me (Acts 26:17-18).

 

I cannot see the other side of this mountain.

I do not know whom He is sending.

Who will sit nearby on the plane to Florida?

Who shared the truth in Texas?

What billboards will she see?

What songs will she hear?

 

For God does speak—now one way, now another— though no one perceives it. In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls on people as they slumber in their beds… (Job 33:14-30).

 

Her Damascus road is coming.

God is speaking.

He is faithful.

Jonah also had free will.

May I walk in faith and not fear.

Sure that that mountain will move…